The other day I heard this song on the radio- It Won't Be Like This For Long by Darius Rucker and I just sat and listened to the words and realized- wow how true this is!! On one hand I thought- thank heavens it won't be like this for long! I don't know how many more days/months I can take of sleep deprivation or how many more times I have to wonder if I know what the heck I'm doing. But on the other hand, it made me realize how quickly time does go by and how much we can miss if we aren't living in the moment. I already miss my little newborn. I know, I know, Kole is only 4 1/2 months old, but it seems like a lifetime ago that I was pregnant and anxiously waiting his arrival. His delivery seems a lifetime ago as well. (perhaps the lack of sleep does that to you?) As we go through each stage with Kole I need to remind myself that it really won't be like this for long- they change so fast! And before I know it- he will be 18!
I have really been trying to simply cherish each day and each moment I have with my little boy. I finally feel like I'm getting the hang of this mom thing and can enjoy it a little more than I did at first. He is SO dang cute and so much fun. I LOVE this stage he is in. He is so smiley and interactive and I'm really enjoying my time with him. The best part? He still likes to snuggle with his mama :) I want to remember every little moment- so I try to take as many pictures as possible and just soak it all in.
Being a mom is by far the hardest thing I have EVER done. The range of emotions that I have felt from the moment I found out I was pregnant till now is incredible. I have had moments when I was so frustrated and wondered how in the world was I going to make it through this. But then I have had countless moments of pure happiness and joy. When I see Kole I can't help but smile and all I want to do is hold my baby and smother him with a million kisses. I know being a mom is hard- but it can't be THAT bad- after all most women do have more than one child :)
*This phase is gonna fly by- if we can just hold on! It won't be like this for long!*
